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Hey guys, I'm so sorry for the hiatus. I'm especially apologizing to my commissioners who I feel super guilty towards.
I guess I'll kinda explain what's going on. I've been in college and stuff, and sure that's stressful. Though that part I'm sort of able to handle. I've been having real issues with my parents lately. I haven't spoken to my dad since Christmas because all he does is try to rip away the stuff that makes me happy, like roleplaying for instance. Not to mention I came out as asexual on Facebook (for which he doesn't even have an account) and he called up my mom to see if there was anything wrong with me.
I'm also running really low on money and for some horrible reason I can't find the motivation to apply for jobs, which is my own damn fault.
Not to mention the fact that the waves of suicidal thoughts are coming back. Those aren't very rad. Like part of me has the urge to get into a car crash, so when I drive I get a little uneasy that my hands will move by themselves and swerve my car into a canal or something. I haven't had those thoughts for a long while up until now so it's like....oh okay, welcome back.
At least I have my two best friends Cat and Alli. Talking to them makes me feel so relieved and a little more positive. Not to mention that Cat and I share the most adorable OC couple! To be honest I draw them constantly cause it makes me feel better.
Though I guess the scary part is that I've been having sharp chest pain lately. It happens at random points of the day. Sometimes it feels like a butcher knife is lodged in my sternum and other times it's a lesser feeling than that. It's probably from the stress. I asked my physiopsych professor about the link between chest pain and stress and she told me that it could lead to a heart attack...so now I'm scared about that. I'm stressed about stress. Ugh.
So yeah, there's an update in case any of you were curious. If any of you have advice as far as the chest pain goes, PLEASE tell me, I don't want to get more heart problems.
Stay rad, everyone.